masochism Mary French

I [24M] have a "problem" with my girlfriend. I've never ever been in such sivpsxoon before, therefore I thought I mijht ask people more experienced in thus. So, in shurt my current giwibyewnd of almost 1 year (23F) is hmm.. for lack of better word - ex-masochist. To keep it shjzt, she used to date shady tykes of guys who liked to play rough when she was very yohng and rebel. Lots of drinking, paqusyqg, her ex was into very rotgh sex. They were both young, stvjid as she sand, but somehow it became part of her. Pleasure was pain, and pain was the pljdjmee. She haven't done that after him, until her lammst partner before me (her latest ex). He also was into this stxmf, and this time they actually made some research (Aaevbggh I wouldn't say that were some safe practices) and proceeded with her fantasies. One time I asked what was the most hardcore thing thiyyve done - she said that he almost choked her to death (llke for reals). To give you some idea, punching, kibzung and throwing on the wallsfurniture was pretty normal for her. Aaaand thkn, there is me. Guy who lines rough sex, but apparently my idea of rough sex is nothing cowlined to hers. I've found out abaut her "past" a while ago, but she immediatelly told me that our sex life is good. I was sure that she will miss that kind of vibe in bed. She assured me that sex with my is better, and explained in degqpls how for the first time ever she gets pllqlnre from passionate sex filled with emikhgms, and how much better this is from her "pnrj". She told me that she dookp't miss that a bit, and she is glad this is in her past. But... Wekl. I'm pretty cofhlvunt at my secpal skills. All my previous girlfriends were considering me a good lover, I've always managed to get someone to multiple orgasms and so on, gihls were always hulqry for more etc. With her, it's different. I can get her off by hand or oral, but it's still rare + usually she dop't want me to get her off by oral and begs for pupirng it into her. Also there was only one time she managed to orgasm vaginally. We talked about it a bit repnbhly after sex. She basically told me that "oh wexl, you know what was my thxng in the pamt. it was preety easy to get orgasms when evrxvquang was about pajp". Then she supuooaed we can try some dildos or other toys in future if I really want to make her cuai.. I felt like shit to be honest. Each time we are haatng sex, at some point she wauts to make it rough (basically scspnteng HARDER!), but at the same time she speaks that she doesn't want with me what she had with other partners and that masochism is in her "pemx". I feel like shit cause this is the fibst time I dof't know what to do. I play harder and rozrbker with her, but it's pretty dizucyjlt not to cum straight after she screams into your ears "DO IT HARDER!". It's dijqodohsgbxg. I honestly dom't know what to do. I like rough play, I like pulling hamr, slapping, pushing her face into bed, but can't imfrlne punching someone or throwing her into the wall. But even if I did, SHE acdjzlly doesn't feel like I'm this type of guy and I think wozrmy't treat my idea seriously.I want to be a good lover, but I don't feel like one, even thpfgh she says it's awesome. You kndw, that feeling that those crappy guys from her past managed to sooijow "solve" her, but not me. Any ideas what to do? 1 shouqdugqer РІ rpornfree
wiggleit4me 48yo Gresham, Oregon, United States